HELP: I am poisoning myself

From a very young age up until just recently, I was slowly poisoning myself unintentionally and without realising that what I was eating was poisoning me. I was diagnosed with the early stages of 3 different diseases, I had skin problems which brought on acne. The elastin and collagen in my skin was damaged. I had multiple wrinkles. I looked a lot older than my age. My hair was grey before my time. I was aging rapidly. I did not know what was happening to me. I needed to know, and fast, so that I can stop this or even possibly reverse it.  I wanted to live, so I had to act fast. I did not want to look like an old woman before my time, and I did not want this to progress any further. My health was declining rapidly. At first, I did not know what it was of course, until I saw a doctor, in which I received emergency treatment.

According to my doctors, I was dying, and if I continued to consume this poison, I would develop multiple illnesses and live a life of sickness and struggle and eventually, this poison will kill me. This damage had already started to take hold of me.  I laid in the hospital bed terrified, shaking. I was going to die if I did not stop consuming this poison that I knew nothing about. I desperately wanted to know what is was that I was poisoning me, so that the antidote could be found. As I lay in the hospital bed I thought of my life and what I got out of it. I felt that I did not do enough.  I felt that my life was incomplete. I wanted more out of life. I was too young to die. I felt my heart pounding out of my body, my head was spinning, I lost focus. All I was thinking about was I was going to die. I kept looking at myself in the mirror, trying to come to terms with my rapid aging. I could not recognise myself. I saw this middle age woman, I still refuse to accept it was me.

A toxicology report was done immediately. The Doctor stated that poisoning may be deliberate or accidental and can occur via oral ingestion, injection, inhalation or tropical absorption. The number of potential poisons a patient may have been exposed to is endless. I can not recall accidentally taking anything of a poisonous nature in any of the above ways. I could not tell the Doctor what I did. The Doctor went on to say that it included pharmaceutical agents, toxic plants, agricultural chemicals, venomous snakes and industrial solvents. i was still none the wiser. I could not Still place what the poisoning was. I could not associate with taking any of these poisonings. I was confused and anxious. I desperately needed to know what it was.

The toxicology report came back with a chemical name of what the poisoning was. It was Dodecacarbon monodecahydrate. To which the chemical formula was: ((2R,3R,4S,5S,6R)-2-[(2S3S45R)-3,4-dihydroxy-2,5-bis(hydroxymethyl)oxapent-2-yl]oxy-6-(hydroxymethyl)oxahexane-3,4,5-triol.

I panicked. It sounded complicated and unsolvable. I decided I could not stand a chance of survival. I shut down and decided to accept my fate. I was finally told what the poisoning was but it meant nothing to me, it was just a long complicated and to me, unsolvable name. How can I find out what this is? So I asked the pathologist, when will you be able to find this out specifically. I was told as soon as possible. It wasn’t soon enough.

Later, the toxicologist came back with another name it was β-D-fructofuranosyl α-D-glucopyranoside. This time it sounded a little more familiar. Although i still did not know what it was, Fructo and gluco sounded more recognisable. I was then immediately given a blood test to confirm the toxicologist’s findings.

The doctor confirmed sugar poisoning was the cause of all this. I don’t know who was more stunned, me or my doctor. Who would have thought it would be sugar. My doctor was absolutely appalled that sugar was responsible for this, being that sugar was supposed to be classified as food. No one warned me sugar was equivalent to poison. If sugar is at all poisonous, shouldn’t we be warned about this? I was confused. I was being poisoned rapidly as evidence of my wrinkles and grey hair. The Doctor actually confirmed that sugar caused my grey hair and wrinkles. My doctor discovered, on top of all the other symptoms,  I had become pre-diabetic, had high cholesterol, premature heart disease and high blood pressure and on top of that, I was overweight. This hit me like a stone wall, even with my bad diet I did not expect or accept it.  For some reason, I felt invincible, I just didn’t think this could happen to me. I did not accept this news easily, so I gave myself an ultimatum between sugar or my life and I was pretty sure what I wanted to choose. 

There was no contest, being sugarless and healthy or eating sugar and being extremely unhealthy thereby killing myself. My enjoyment of sugar came to a screeching halt. I was prepared to do everything I possibly can to get this poison out of my system. I was going to do everything in my power to save my life and reverse this. I was immediately prescribed blood pressure tablets and I was given 3 months by my doctor, to bring my blood sugar, weight and cholesterol back to normal. I was up for the challenge. I took this as 3 months to change my life for the better. I was grateful to my doctor for giving me this chance to turn this damage around and I was not going to let myself or my doctor down. This was the wakeup call I needed. My health was now my priority. As much as I loved sugar, I now realised that the only role sugar played, once consumed, was to cause major destruction to my health.  How can I have such love for something when its only role was to destroy me. It did not love me back.


I was a self confessed sugar addict. I have had a very erratic on/off relationship with sugar. Loving it because of its delicious luxurious decadence, then hating it because of what it was doing to my weight, then falling back in love with it again. I was pulled in those two directions for years. Although I hated what sugar did to my weight, I could not completely stop. I absolutely hated being overweight but I still ate sugar. I was an addict who did not want to be an addict. I hated this type of dominion that sugar had over me. Unfortunately, I was not blessed with a fast metabolism, this, along with being a sugar addict did not go down very well.  Being a sugar addict, at some point during my teens, I made sugar my main food source in that it sometimes outweighed and/or replaced one or two of my three meals per day, it was my most favourite food,  If at all it should be called food, sugar used to fill me up to the point where I had no more room left in my tummy to eat balanced healthy meals. All this sugar and I did not even know that it was poisoning me. Horrified by this revelation? You should be. This could even be the reason sugar had such a dramatic effect on me. Because this is not the norm.

Even I knew that sugar, if eaten at all, should be eaten as a special treat every so often but my addiction took this to a whole new level.

My addictive mind would often doubt that it was ever possible to be free from sugar. It did not help that sugar surrounded me daily. Most food outlets sold sugar, people around me ate sugar, sugar was advertised everywhere, like a type of sugar mania, and I had become a sugar maniac. This was a massive contribution to my vast sugar intake – sugar mania. Sugar was not only in chocolate, cakes and sweets but it was also hidden in different foods. It was everywhere. How do I escape this? It was so easy to get sucked into this warped existence. It followed me everywhere. I could not escape. Sugar mania dragged me into this delusional world of sugar and I was lost in it, I was in a bubble. The sugar industry had me just where they wanted me. It controlled me. I was hooked. Sugar had this psychological and powerful effect of not only keeping me hooked on the stuff, but also making me feel like I had such a tight grip that felt impossible to break free from. It was like a plague and I was fixated, oblivious like a zombie – This is sugar mania.

When you are caught up in this state of unawareness it is very difficult to see past this sugar mania. Even more difficult to break out of it. It was the perfect setting for sugar giants raking in on those long term profits. Finally, It took an emergency doctor to jolt me out of this monopolised, brutal, deadly transfixion. It was immediately after sugar lead me to my doom, that my doctor allowed me to wake up from this food demoralization.

I was dying from sugar poisoning. That is enough to make me ‘snap out’ of this torment.

This caused my diet to consist mostly of sugar on and off for years. There were periods when I tried to stop but the addiction was too strong. So I would snap right back in. I was too spellbound by this sugar mania. For many years I was so hard on myself for my high intake of sugar, but I realise now that I was not in control of my sugar intake, sugar mania was. I did not control sugar, sugar controlled me. I was on a tandem of gluttonous, continuous special treats and I went from a sugar high to a sugar low on a regular basis.  These rapid fluctuations of blood sugar levels are extremely dangerous because of the stress they place on the body. When I stooped to a sugar low, it would also lower my mood and I was lacking in energy. I really struggled to function on those days. I would often have to have a sugary drink just to balance it all out. I was using sugar to remedy my sugar overload – the all powerful sugar. Not really an ideal way to live.  This was the extent of my sugar addiction and even my addictive self knew my body had reached its limit with sugar. It was high time to break up my love hate relationship.  I knew I had to somehow wean myself off this empty calorie that has a such fabulous taste, that looked so appealing and so tempting. But when stripped of all this illusion, sugar was just an empty calorie full of menace to your health.

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What a superb tactic: ‘let’s disguise this poison with an irresistible taste then we can make millions.’

We live in such an advanced age, how is it that sugar is still ruling our civilisation? The only reason sugar is still selling is because we keep buying. It comes down to us as consumers. We are keeping the sugar industry alive. We are feeding the sugar industry the sugar industry is consequently feeding us. This chain must be broken. The most bitter element in all of this is that we are keeping it alive through ‘sugar mania’ . How do we finally break this strong hold to save lives? To save our lives. To save the lives of our loved ones and future generations to come. We are our future. We are a collosal society, we have a vast amount of resources available to us, we can do this together united as a whole.

Sugar tasted too good for it to be so destructive. It had this deceptive, obscene personality. At first it wants to tempt you by looking so allure, then once it’s got you in its grasp, it then wants to keep you hooked. The incredible taste of sugar was just a camouflage to the havoc that it caused to the human body. It’s as though it wants to deceive you with its taste and once enticed, it wreaked damage throughout.  This reminds me of the Hansel and Gretel movie. Where the witch tempts Hansel and Gretal into the trap of a colourful pretty camouflaged sugar house, trying to reel them in and catch them. As though they were bait. Once they are caught, the attraction was gone. The pretty sugar house then turns into a prison trapping them inside. No need for the attraction any more, they have been caught. This is exactly what sugar is – it is a trap. Every time I see a sugar advert, I can’t help but imagine the witch in Hansel and Gretal. In reality, the true picture is, we are the bait and the sugar industry wants to lure you into their trap for your money. They don’t care about your health as long as there are profits rolling in. They are ruthless. This is why you need to take charge and take care of your health. Do not fall into this trap.

I then became quite resentful and militant against sugar. I had a war on my hands and I knew I had to put up a good fight to switch to loving my health more than my regular sugar fix. I continued to love this hate for sugar, and I wanted to intensify it. I now wanted to turn sugar into my nemesis and for those who love sugar, you know that this is not an easy task, it was like getting yourself off a drug, or worst still, going cold turkey and to make this easy for me I had to continue to research the down side of sugar, expeditiously. For those that are already diabetic, please read my next article, this may even benefit you too.

Sugar advertising was based on just taste, they had nothing else to boost its sales, so they had to really boost it up by adding luster and dazzle to adverts just to seduce you. They gave it a nice shiny wrapper and made it smooth and creamy just to enhance advertising. Sugar even became fashionable, in the form of cupcakes. How pretty and tempting they were and even more so being that they were the craze at the time. The sugar industry were getting really creative with their poison. How ingenious and imaginative turning sugar into a trend.

Everything else to do with sugar was dark and dangerous. Sugar advertising was fantastic, it worked, somehow the sugar industry managed to pull it off, selling poison to consumers.  Sugar is a multi-million-pound industry, how are they able to sell what is literally poison and make so much money from it?  They managed to sell it to me pretty well. I would often enjoy the moment, sitting in my favourite large comfy chair, under a nice comfy duvet, watching my favourite TV programme, opening the nice shimmery wrapper of a chocolate bar and biting into the most luxurious textures and taste. It was a great setting.  It was my luxurious moment I needed after a long stressful day at a job that I absolutely despised, as if being rewarded a moment of luxury, despite the fact that I knew it was bad for my weight, I continued this for years.  it made me feel special, it was almost like a comfort blanket. Like its some special occasion, almost like it’s my birthday or Christmas and I needed that type of setting to recover my day to return to a normal state of health, mind and strength. I loved the way sugar made me feel in this sense. It made me feel l could go through another day at that despicable job. I was comforted and I was also vulnerable. The perfect victim for boosting sugar sales.

The sugar industry had me wholeheartedly, it was preying on my weaknesses. Sugar was just a taste for that moment. It was all I needed in that moment and it was at the expense of my health.  I was actually using sugar as a way of making me get through my arduous week and it worked. But little did I know how much it was destroying me at the same time. This is what sugar advertising was doing. The downside of sugar was never obvious, it would have to be thoroughly researched. Wouldn’t it have been nice to have a warning attached, warning us of the dangers of sugar and how much it can cause damage to your health? At least we can have a choice or even have more control over our sugar intake.  After all they have warnings on cigarette packages.

Have you ever wondered why there is no negative advertising about sugar? Or noticed that there is no advertising on sugar damage or the in-depth explanation of why sugar is bad for you? Sugar advertising should be accompanied with sugar damage advertising. I have decided to reveal the impact sugar can have on your body, so brace yourselves, you are in for a nasty surprise.

A lot of the calories today come from sugar and not the good sugar from fruits and vegetables (which is filled with enzymes, vitamins and minerals) Those empty sugar calories get converted straight into fat, rob your body from its dwindling supply of nutrients, promotes an acidic environment, and becomes food for the bacteria in your body, it’s like eating poison in a fancy wrapper.

Its common knowledge that sugar is unhealthy for us but do we know just how unhealthy it is? i don’t want to be the bearer of bad news but please see the exhaustive list of how sugar can affect, poison and kill us. This list consists of the untold truth of how sugar effects the human body, some of which you may already know. So here we go…  

Sugar suppresses the immune system, sugar impairs cognitive functions, sugar can upset the body’s mineral balance, sugar can contribute to hyperactivity – sugar high, anxiety, depression, concentration difficulties, and crankiness in children. Sugar can produce a significant rise in triglycerides. Sugar can cause drowsiness and decreased activity in children – sugar low, Sugar can reduce helpful high-density cholesterol (HDLs) sugar can promote an elevation of harmful cholesterol (LDLs). Sugar can cause hypoglycaemia. Sugar contributes to a weakened defence against bacterial infection. Sugar can cause kidney damage. Sugar can increase the risk of coronary heart disease. Sugar may lead to chromium deficiency. Sugar can cause copper deficiency. Sugar interferes with absorption of calcium and magnesium. Sugar can increase fasting levels of blood glucose. Sugar can promote tooth decay. Sugar can produce an acidic stomach. Sugar can raise adrenalin levels in children. Sugar can lead to periodontal disease. Sugar can speed up the aging process, causing wrinkles and grey hair. Sugar can increase total cholesterol. Sugar can contribute to weight gain and obesity. High intake of sugar increases the risk of crohn’s disease and ulcerative colitis. Sugar can contribute to diabetes. Sugar can contribute to osteoporosis. Sugar can cause a decrease in insulin sensitivity. Sugar leads to decreased glucose tolerance. Sugar can cause cardiovascular disease. Sugar can increase systolic blood pressure. Sugar causes food allergies. Sugar can cause free radical formation in the bloodstream. Sugar can cause toxaemia in pregnancy. Sugar can produce eczema in children. Sugar can overstress the pancreas, causing damage. Sugar can cause atherosclerosis. Sugar can compromise the lining of the capillaries. Sugar can cause liver cells to divide, increasing the size of the liver. Sugar can increase the amount of fat in the liver. Sugar can increase the kidney size and cause pathological changes in the kidney. Sugar can increase the body’s fluid retention. Sugar can cause hormonal imbalance. Sugar can cause hypertension. Sugar can cause headaches, including migraines. Sugar can increase blood platelet adhesiveness which increases risk of blood clots and strokes. Sugar can increase insulin responses in those consuming high-sugar diets compared to low sugar diets. Sugar increases bacterial fermentation in the colon.

Cancer cells feed sugar. If you create an acidic oxygen-less environment, fill the environment with sugar and you are pretty much creating a breeding ground for cancer, bacteria, yeast infections (candida) and a body full of disease

It was with great trepidation that i viewed the prospect of prolonging my quest with sugar

Sugar advertising make it seem like sugar is edible. It is misleading and worrying. How do I eat or enjoy sugar knowing that it can cause this much damage? Worrying about the destruction of what each bite I take will do to my body, is not a way to enjoy chocolate. No matter how good it tastes, knowing what I know now, I respect my body too much to cause further damage. It now feels like suicide to continue to eat sugar the way I used to and especially to continue to eat it after the damage it has already caused. The damages sugar has already caused me, is my warning. Knowing the damage sugar can cause to the body, does sugar not deserve a warning label? It is just as dangerous as smoking.

Definition of poison – a substance that is capable of causing the illness or death of a living organism when induced or absorbed.

Sugar causes cancer, heart disease, stroke, diabetes, to mention just a few. Let’s not kid ourselves. Our bodies were never meant to ingest sugar in its free form. Going through this list, Is it really worth it just for the taste of it?


Please read my next article: What I did to reverse my sugar damage and how you can reverse diabetes.

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